Kawan saya.....

Found this in my email...

kata mak, KAWAN tu ibarat lebah,habis madu sepah dibuang.......

kata abah, KAWAN tu umpama bunga ros, dipandang cantik dipegang sakit.....

kata atuk, KAWAN tu seperti air, terus mengalir.....

kata nenek,KAWAN tu bak bulan, dipuja dan disanjung tp nun jauh di sana....

kate sedare,kawan tu mcm makanan, kawan makan kawan!!

kata abang,KAWAN tu seperti lembu, mengikut saje ape dikata........

kata kakak,KAWAN tu tak ubah macam durian, bau je busuk tp sedap dimakan....

kata adik,KAWAN tu macam biskut, sekejap ade sekejap takde.......

kata aku,KAWAN tu lah saudara ku tempat aku mengadu kesusahan dan kesempitan

kata aku,kawan tu tak kisahlah camner..walaupun dia IBARAT LEBAH, UMPAMA BUNGA ROS, SEPERTI AIR, BAK
BULAN, SEPERTILEMBU, TAK UBAH MACAM DURIAN & MACAM BISKUT!!!

Dia tetap kawan....tau tak sebab ape???sekali aku dah kawan ngan dia, selamanye dia ttp kawan aku...itu cara aku berkawan..

Kawan korang macam mana pulak?

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Frog and Saz

I have a date with my girls Frog and Saz this Sunday weeehooooo!!!~

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love too much

Lately ni emotionally so unstable and banyak fikir benda bukan-bukan. Pernah tak anyone of you be in this situation where you hardly decide what to do, what to think, how to react and how to be in that condition. Rasa nak lari jauh-jauh. Bawak diri. Fikir dalam-dalam and buang rasa kecewa yang amat sangat. After all the things kita share and sayang takkan habis macam tu saja. How sad. I've been through that phase before. Forgiving people and accepting them back after all the shits they've given to us. But again, gateway to freedom is by forgiving and be thankful kan. Maybe mudah nak jadi baik tapi tak mudah nak jadi cruel. Maybe kita lupa kita dah bagi peluang kat orang lain terlalu kerap sangat sampai kita sanggup offer diri untuk jadi penyelamat tapi akhirnya memakan diri. Orang yang kita betul-betul sayang pun boleh pergi jauh daripada kita atas apa yang kita sendiri buat. Hukumlah sekejam mana pun. Katalah sekeji mana pun. Tuhan saja yang boleh judge and adili semuanya.

I'm so well known dalam family as someone yang kawannya selautan. Suka pentingkan kawan lebih daripada diri sendiri and family. I was that type of person before. Tapi memang betul. Ke kiri ke kanan semuanya pasal kawan. Dari kecik sampai la besar. Tapi bila dah besar-besar ni tak tahu lah kenapa. Hmm..susah nak cakap. Terlalu sayang kan kawan sendiri sampai makan diri. Sampai buat diri sendiri jadi macam ni. Terlalu menjaga hati and buat tindakan bodoh. Betul cakap orang, kalau benci jangan benci sangat..nanti satu hari terlalu sayang sangat kat orang tu..kalau sayang jangan sayang sangat-sangat..nanti satu hari takut membenci..

Entah lah..for me,kawan memang segalanya. I have these few very good friends since school and mereka semua tak sama dengan orang lain. Masing-masing dengan perangai masing-masing. Walau baik, mulut laser, lain taste, kalut, emotional, pendiam, moody type, mengada, merengek, blur, funny, garang or what ever pun..I cannot imagine my life without them. Tak terfikir dalam kepala untuk hilang mereka sebab kalau ada macam-macam problem menimpa pun they are still there for me. They are always there for me and I am surely always be with them. Untuk imagine yang satu hari nanti kitorang tak rapat, berjauh hati, bawak diri memang tak pernah terlintas langsung. I would cry badly kalau lah benda ni betul-betul terjadi. Selama ni apa yang jadi pun semua dapat kitorang tempuh. Walau bergaduh macam mana sekalipun, walau terasa hati, walau terkasar bahasa and walau sakit hati macam mana sekalipun. Bukan nak senang hidup tanpa diorang. They are my additional sisters and will always be my sisters. Seriously =(

Lately ni I coudn't sleep well sebab otak ligat sangat fikir pasal hal ni. Entah la..hati terlalu terusik and airmata terlalu murah. All I can do now is Tuhan tenangkan hati ni and buka hati semua orang untuk fikir lebih matang, lebih rasional and of course semoga Tuhan panjangkan umur kami semua so that angan-angan dari kecil nak hidup and tua sama-sama tercapai walau macam mana sekalipun. I love you guys too much.

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Gateway to freedom

People think that when you run away it’s a gateway to freedom. It’s not. It’s a trap in the long run because you end up on the other side of the world with no friends. I just think that I can't be Miss M. I can't befriend with someone who lied to your face and kantoi over and over again. My IQ is too high for such human being. Dia boleh la, I tak boleh. I rasa malu.

I quote above say from a friend. How true...anyway I am pretty lega with so many things...hmm again..what ever it is..all I can say is thank you very much..I pray for your happiness..and gateway to freedom is actually forgiveness and be thankful with everything that happens =)

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Sebenarnya

Sebenarnya behind all the happiness and colourful life I had past few days ni, ada benda yang bitter jauh dalam sudut hati ni. Terdetik jugak tanya diri sendiri samada nak lupakan or amik masa untuk heal dengan sepenuhnya. Tapi biasa la kalau benda tu something very important in life surely otak takleh henti figure out apa nak buat, apa akan jadi, apa dah jadi yadda yadda yadda....

Some good friends and family told me to remain quiet and give some space for myself. I had enough. Since the incident,I have no words to express. Speechless. Numb. For now I better pray that semuanya akan berubah jadi lebih baik. But 1 thing for sure, I will not forget bout it at all. I had enough too. Seriously enough. What ever it is pon what comes around goes around. Kalau I buat salah I akan ubah. Kalau sebaliknya then I doa semuanya akan baik-baik saja. Lagipun apa yang jadi semuanya ni memang ada hikmah.

Ya Allah amin amin ya rabbalalamin. Kau Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Mengadili.

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This is TRUE

An entry posted by Kak Jan. Ermm well..this is so true..

I think all we have to do is have a positive mind and just be there for them, whenever they need you. That being said, I also think that, you know when you need to give up on someone. When all they do is hurt you, changed from what they used to be, not in a good way but in a bad way. When you tried to help them but it’s futile. You just can’t help those who can’t help themselves. I also think that being apart is important in any relationship as much as being close. When you are away from each other, that’s when you realized that something is missing in your life, like its incomplete and it also gives you time to yourself to get to know what you want on your own, and also think about new ideas or stories or thoughts to share with people. If you are with them all the time, I think there is a tendency that you will take them for granted, knowing that they are always there for you. Sometimes you can't think on your own... because you depended on other people views or thoughts. If you distanced yourself from them a bit, it makes you think about the person more, you actually have time to be able to miss them, and makes you want to see them and really looking forward to spend time with them again.

We have only one life. We should make the best out of it. Have a positive mind. Be good to people. Make new friends. Find new hobbies. Avoid negative thoughts. Enjoy what we have while we still can enjoy them.

Hmmm........

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